Here's an excerpt from a LiveJournal entry I just wrote. I felt inclined to share it here:
This past night, after logging off the computer at 4:20 this morning, I settled into reading Women Who Run With The Wolves. I tend to read this book in fits and starts, and whenever I pick it up, it always seems to have just the right thing to say to me for wherever I am in my personal evolution.
I picked it up again in the middle of the chapter on Skeleton Woman, which was where I had left off. The author, Clarissa Pinkola Estes, has much to say about the Life/Death/Life force in this chapter. In my work with Kali Ma, I feel as though I am becoming more intimately acquainted with this aspect day by day.
When I started working with Her, my friend and talented psychic Desiree said to me, "She'll come in and peel you like a banana and it'll be done." At the time it all sounded so brutal to me, particularly since she had been imparting these insights at a time when I was so fragile and hurting inside. The shedding of each outworn husk continually flays me open and prods me to confront my fears, suppositions, and illusions. Each time I ride each challenge She hands me, another dull husk is cast away, and the beauty that is me can more truly shine through.
Before falling asleep last night, She reminded me that there are two sides to every coin, and thus another side to the peel metaphor.
I fell asleep to the image of a red rose, petals closed up tight against the world, not yet open. The full beauty and glory of the flower is encased within the bud, and none outside can see what is there. The bud may be afraid to bloom and choose to remain closed up tight out of fear. The tragedy here is that none outside can experience the beauty inside. Even more tragic is that the bud doesn't get to experience the growth, the unfolding, the radiant joy of being a rose! Yes, unfolding and opening means risking a lot. It means opening oneself to the harshness of life and the elements. At the same time, by unfolding to one's potential, one can taste the sweetness of the sun and the admiration of the beholder along with the harsh blows of the wind, the pecking of the birds, visitations by bees and bugs.
Every day, I wake up with the resolution to continue casting off husks and opening up my petals to reveal the rose within. I'm proud to say that I wouldn't have it any other way.
This past night, after logging off the computer at 4:20 this morning, I settled into reading Women Who Run With The Wolves. I tend to read this book in fits and starts, and whenever I pick it up, it always seems to have just the right thing to say to me for wherever I am in my personal evolution.
I picked it up again in the middle of the chapter on Skeleton Woman, which was where I had left off. The author, Clarissa Pinkola Estes, has much to say about the Life/Death/Life force in this chapter. In my work with Kali Ma, I feel as though I am becoming more intimately acquainted with this aspect day by day.
When I started working with Her, my friend and talented psychic Desiree said to me, "She'll come in and peel you like a banana and it'll be done." At the time it all sounded so brutal to me, particularly since she had been imparting these insights at a time when I was so fragile and hurting inside. The shedding of each outworn husk continually flays me open and prods me to confront my fears, suppositions, and illusions. Each time I ride each challenge She hands me, another dull husk is cast away, and the beauty that is me can more truly shine through.
Before falling asleep last night, She reminded me that there are two sides to every coin, and thus another side to the peel metaphor.
I fell asleep to the image of a red rose, petals closed up tight against the world, not yet open. The full beauty and glory of the flower is encased within the bud, and none outside can see what is there. The bud may be afraid to bloom and choose to remain closed up tight out of fear. The tragedy here is that none outside can experience the beauty inside. Even more tragic is that the bud doesn't get to experience the growth, the unfolding, the radiant joy of being a rose! Yes, unfolding and opening means risking a lot. It means opening oneself to the harshness of life and the elements. At the same time, by unfolding to one's potential, one can taste the sweetness of the sun and the admiration of the beholder along with the harsh blows of the wind, the pecking of the birds, visitations by bees and bugs.
Every day, I wake up with the resolution to continue casting off husks and opening up my petals to reveal the rose within. I'm proud to say that I wouldn't have it any other way.
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